STREAM OF CONSIOUSNESS | not that powerful

You’ll regret pushing me away

Cause when you see me with an upgrade

You’ll be sad you missed your chance

As for me I’ll take it in stride

I gave you a chance too bad it’s gone

I’ll be sure to take care of me

So don’t blame me when you feel inferiority

I’m sick and tired of being made to feel

I’m responsible for everyone’s actions and thoughts

I’m not that powerful

No matter how much power you give me

I didn’t make you sneak around

To feel that you had to screw around

That’s your own insecurities trying you down

I got mine with pride no shame

We were only fucking, just party friends

So don’t make me feel like I’m to blame

Why is my spotlight giving you such a complex

If you knew me as a friend like you say you do

You’d be proud of my time to shine

I’ve been blamed for the roaming eye

When I gave up begging for the attention I deserve

I’ve been blamed for shady games

When I tried to be a faithful man

I’ve been blamed for adultery

When I was the one who kept it in my pants

So anything anyone has to throw at me

It’s nothing new, you’re just a victim in my way

And you wonder why I end up feeling the way I do

I’m not good enough so that as soon as I leave you go get screwed

While I waited and waited for you to take me in

You spend all of our time absorbed in yourself

I’m sick and tired of being hung up on your shelf

Fuck it!  Even though you’re giving me power I refuse to reciprocate

With any man any time ever again

Working for free....

Or at a severely reduced rate... I'm worth more than this, and you know it!

You're taking advantage of a situation.   The responsibilities you're giving me and expect me to complete have paid me very well elsewhere.  You're lucky you have someone who has experience with Hotel Distribution, Package Creation, Sales, and Operations!  Don't expect me to do it for the chump change you're paying me, that's unfair. 

It pisses me off when you expect me to do all these things and you're at work somedays less than an hour, and when you come in you have a list of things that you want me to do because you can't be assed to do it.  You're the one with two college degrees, you're the one who is a CHA, you're the one that is collecting a paycheck that allows you to travel more than be at work. 

It's funny that you're telling everyone that you're going on work related conferences on the weekends...REALLY?  We both know that's bullshit...

Rant over...