My favorite example from today, and there were several.
You disregarded boundaries due to a lack of trust that you've carried from before the beginning.
When called out on this you claimed some ownership but quickly professed being a victim.
This turned into suicidal taunting and alerts of illness.
Caring but not knowing what else to do I order to call medical professionals to come to you; however the catch comes into perspective that you are in Brookhaven and doing so would be a flagrant admission to the violation of the no contact order that hasn't been followed since day one, which carries huge ramifications for me.
I tell you all this with the idea to call it in under someone else's name.
You then turn your nose up at the suggestion and tell me point blank if I do that you will just show them our texts proving I've been in contempt of the order.
Once that's established we twist back to the suicidal proclamations.
What can I do? Be tortured by that abuse? Have the threat of more jail time thrown in my face if I try to help? I'm damned no matter which way I look.
I took a stand, no stand would be the right one but I took one. Refusal to have that constantly being put over my head and not engaging in the emotional abuse of the suicidal idealations. Hypocritical because of what I've done in the past. Yes, probably. But the spiral never stops if you allow yourself to keep spinning.
You're spinning around. Je ne sais pas pourquoi?
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